It ain't easy buddy...

Chores
and work
and spectacles
and net
and bank
and guitar
and family
and friends
and myself...phew

It ain't easy buddy, although simple tasks they all are.

First ideal thing in the morning which is skipped every time is waking up early, and so begins the disasters, office at 10 and body finally is awake at 15 minutes to 10, brushing teeth, nature's call, exercise, tea, breakfast, clothes, hair,bath,footwear,cleaning room, snack for evening, lunch,..Oh my gosh, how am I supposed to handle it all. What a list, and guess what some genius souls handle it all, and don't forget that is just the beginning of a day. when it comes to taking care, I think one can not take care of one's own self also without taking up few pains and most of the times the pains are skipped and deviations are inevitable.

Even at this moment also I am a big old mess, trying everyday yet not so well and always giving up for one thing or the other (How am I ever going to be able to put myself to a good routine). Still hope is a thing which is way more adamant & it just join hands with luck and keep on trying for saving the day :)

Dying Desires ?

Although I was about to write a very stupid blue n gloomy post, yet god played the dice again & here I am listening to a beautiful melody picked at random by the itunes player, and voila !...swept away ..yanni ! seriously ...t'was tears in heaven few moments back, where clapton was crying his heart out and then comes this dancing yanni.

Well to write a bit on the heading/or title of this post, It's just that whenever one's feeling lazy to work hard on some thing we just use the best excuse possible, in my case I moulded it to be loss of desire (of course the context being just that I got an idea of the vast ocean lying beyond me and I am unable to step in just coz I've lost desire to swim across & make a world record...well no records in actuallity but just a metaphorical depiction)

I think may be its the passion for something that drives a person towards something, but when there are rare cases as mine at times, it is also something not to be given up just because you have no passion or it seems difficult...but stand tall and let it be (as a wise singer behind me is singing..wo ho ! its beatles who said it.

So the end line being if am unable to adher, I am not to just give up crying but be myself and let things happen at their own pace with allowing a lot of room for self-help. C'mon you've been at worst times, this is just another tough one.

Tuning in ain't that tough girl.
Get up
get goin
what if desire's dyin
ur still awake and livin
so be it even 1 in the morning
be it a time ur mind muddling and meddling into a hell lot of things
it will come to you
you have it and you will bring it out beautifully
Trust
its a very strong word indeed
stronger than even the will
:)

What seemed zeta yesterday is an alpha today

How strange are the human thoughts and their transitions.
Never realised that even a group had an importance.
Few years back it seemed that it is a frivolous pursuit but now it seems to have gained an entire new dimension...

(Gosh..I miss writing !!! Even now i am time pressed to write more as I am sitting in an office environment But thoughts never see time, they just come unexpectedly)